[ He didn't mean to get this irritated this fast, really he didn't, but. ]
Are you kidding me?
You're my friend. And from what everybody was telling me, your mental state is important to the power. The steadier you're feeling, the less likely it is to trigger.
[ Maine wants to snap that his head is fine. He even writes out half the sentence, old habits making him immediately defensive about his mental faculties. But…
He deletes the words. Because his head isn't fine. There's a fucking hole inside of it, and there's no fixing that. There's no smoothing it over. There's no building a bridge and getting the fuck over it. Not when that hole is a sucking void that feels like it's eating him alive.
He stares at Wash's words, and he doesn't know what to say. Finally: ]
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Are you kidding me?
You're my friend. And from what everybody was telling me, your mental state is important to the power. The steadier you're feeling, the less likely it is to trigger.
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He deletes the words. Because his head isn't fine. There's a fucking hole inside of it, and there's no fixing that. There's no smoothing it over. There's no building a bridge and getting the fuck over it. Not when that hole is a sucking void that feels like it's eating him alive.
He stares at Wash's words, and he doesn't know what to say. Finally: ]
That sucks.
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That answers my question. Look, Maine, the answer isn't being even more alone. That's not going to help anyone.
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I'll check in soon.