[It's still a little weird to hear that. She'd never really thought of herself as caring until she met Wash and he kept telling her she was. She shrugs.]
Maybe, but... I don't really have my shit together. Not enough for a kid.
[ Shit, he missed her birthday. And if he's remembering right they have a half-anniversary coming up, maybe he should do something... Kyna's question shakes him out of that train of thought, though. ]
Me? No. Not right now, for sure. I'd probably suck at it -- it's not the end of the world when I fuck up with you or my team, but that could really hurt a kid. Besides, I don't know who I am half the time, and my life's too dangerous.
I guess it's hard to predict? Most of the time I'm just muddling through life, so I make a lot of mistakes. But you guys can call me on that, to course correct. A child can't.
I was just curious, then the reason felt important. Maybe I just feel like you could be good at anything, if it was something you wanted. Just in general, ruling things out because they don't come naturally isn't being fair to yourself.
[ He shrugs a little, too, because this isn't quite the same as learning a new skill or whatever. It's a personal decision. ]
Like if you wanted to, you could learn to kick my ass without magic. But it's fine that you don't. And it's fine if you don't want kids. The why just threw me off.
[ It's easy enough to pull her in close, smiling a little now that she's not visibly distressed anymore. He's always so thrown off when she calls him sweet. ]
Well no, nobody is. But you're good at a lot, so if there's something you want it's worth trying.
[ Wash hums, still feeling like he miss-stepped by asking in the first place but. It seems to have turned out okay. ]
Like you said, it's probably normal to talk about with somebody you're planning to be with long term. I'm just sorry I freaked you out twice in one night. Can I make it up to you?
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You think..? Why?
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...I don't know. I just would.
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[ No, you know what, it's not. This seems important. ]
I get if you don't want kids, but I think you could be good at it. You're so caring.
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Maybe, but... I don't really have my shit together. Not enough for a kid.
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[She doesn't know how to handle this discussion, and she's getting uncomfortable.]
Do you want kids?
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Me? No. Not right now, for sure. I'd probably suck at it -- it's not the end of the world when I fuck up with you or my team, but that could really hurt a kid. Besides, I don't know who I am half the time, and my life's too dangerous.
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I don't think you'd suck at it.
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Which is it for you?
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Only if you wanted to? You already answered.
[ And she's clearly very uncomfortable with this, he wasn't planning to ever bring it up again. ]
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It seemed like you wanted to talk about it?
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[ He shrugs a little, too, because this isn't quite the same as learning a new skill or whatever. It's a personal decision. ]
Like if you wanted to, you could learn to kick my ass without magic. But it's fine that you don't. And it's fine if you don't want kids. The why just threw me off.
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You're really sweet, you know that? I'm not good at everything.
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Well no, nobody is. But you're good at a lot, so if there's something you want it's worth trying.
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I don't know. It's weird to think about.
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I've never had anyone I'm dating ask me that.
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Like you said, it's probably normal to talk about with somebody you're planning to be with long term. I'm just sorry I freaked you out twice in one night. Can I make it up to you?